Big Gun

So powerful you can kill. What if you used that weapon to heal?What if you asked them the questions about their suffering? You can just say that you use it and you look stunning.The tires of your truck sure do have a large diameter.

When you peel out you leave dust. It’s in my mouth the flavor of a new beginning that a bitch like me shouldn’t be getting.Asphalt on my stomach and I’ m outta air. The air is stolen from me from someone you said doesn’t belong here. What is your problem? Do you think I’m wrong here? Do you wanna argue? Why don’t you make more useless rules that cater to my demographic ?They shop at the same stores.You sure do know tactic. It’s tacky and bat shit and I couldn’t make it up that you know where he works but let him get away with this stuff. He made it for me and deposited it in his bank. He can’t feed his kids, but he can fill his gas tank. Enough gas to gas em.Talk trash to em.

Deposit.Withdrawl. Deposit. Withdrawl.It’s exhausting with your overdrive in overhaul. Overhauling myself to speak and just be repected. I hang up the phone like “ oops musta got disconnected.” I’m gonna act like a bitch when I dissect this. Breathe life into me so no one has to dissect this.I would be resurrected .Boys act like Christ and girls perform rituals.Dance around a fire and act stupid with skulls.Girls say some shit. Do you and your friends laugh? Lack of empathy is reserved for psychopaths.

You are constructed like I can’t remove the gluten. Cocaine in your vains is better shot, not snorted.That is how I was marked in the books. How many years off my soul were there taken?I stand mistaken. Why are you standing over me? Why do you hate me?I think it’s possible we all can live if we can all live together. Your God would appreciate it and probably like you better. Mud becomes dirt, but I know the ingredients in your chocolate cake. Stop trying to shove it in my mouth. I said no while lying down.

I searched for an endless medium to save my soul before she becomes a drugged up, dragged out type of demon. It seems relentless to buy dresses and ask for makeup when it’s just getting me air kisses and shoulder shrugs. I like this one. Will it make me cute? I look better when I am not watching you.

I look better when I am not letting you.Stopped betting on you.Wanna consume you but I am too tired to think about using you. Didn’t sleep again, trying to protect my next of kin. Hold her close while you can. Don’t let it slip.Divine feminine is a product you buy. Something lodged inside and used to cleanse. like you could ever……. ever……… make me clean again. Take out your fucking windex and pretend I never happened. I got the cleaning pads if you bring your weapon. Silly rabbit. Be careful about where yr steppin. Whose toes are those? No one to you, I suppose. Crunch the bones, and snap a picture for 10.99. Whoops! There goes her soul! Bloody bleeding cotton is receding when they wipe my mouth off. A disappoint is limp and soft.

A true nature of what you hide behind. There is no wood behind this 5 and dime. There is no keeping or collecting.Dodging tree to tree. This is how they allow you to be. My hands are dirtier than yours.Your cigarette smells worse. My hands stink like the dishes and fuck you. You don’t even wash yours. Hand me your hand me downs when we do the same work. We will keep going to church on Sunday. Pastor still looks the same. Still part of the same boring game. Words I will not, do not care to understand. God is not a woman and God is not a man.God is not in a vaccum or a suit.The good kind…. The NICE kind.God wears cologne and cleans his room.

My hair is dripping.The sweat is trickling down my eyebrows.Stings my eyes to know how you don’t see what I do. I won’t cry when you tell the truth. Drop the bomb, disarm, scream, abuse. Demean, dismiss. You pulled back, and this is how the bomb blew. This is how you start to end it. Scam it, dismiss it. Appreciation is a blind A + Apple pie you sit on cuz I let you put it down. Now no one eats cuz we gotta act like we NEEDED YOU AROUND?! We are the earth and the trees. You are the sea and the waves and the clouds and I am the earth, and wind does blow and can blow you around. Take your wallet. Take money from it when you die and walk away, just so callously. Dirt under my nails. They smelled me coming. Only people like you earn the money to do contstruction. Build and build so you can destroy. I will mend you and your wounds and fuck me harder wanna kiss you miss you hope we get shoved together, crush on you, but pleasing me is a stereotype.

and I am wild like leather and sun beaten and hard to hold together. You change and get tethered and wild and beat up and kick some ass, seamore. Make em hurt when you hit em hard and hit em up and pick em up and pickle em.Trousers or dark denim? Suit or overalls?Long coats or motorcycle jackets? Robe and slippers got you wide open. Opened up and it’s so disgusting. No one told you to be this trusting. Just sitting here crusty and full. Grateful.Fat. Sloppy loose skin, excited because I get to live. Saturated in my own marinating fat that you try to pretend doesn’t offend. Is this what you want?

A loss of interest? A loss of a best friend? A loss of a win and you won and keep winning? A score.Like mayonnaise or mustard. you are ketchup with olives god it makes me so sick.Tequila or rum shots? Must be fun to be shot.You like to be loud. Still the same gender when you scream out loud. Run for cover. Look what you started. We could have laid together, gazing up at the clouds. Forever rushing by , while the wind whispers sweet lullabies that sing sweet nothings into my ear. It’s not hurricane season yet this year.Together the world rushes by. Blind to us in a moment.Maybe it’s the moment who was stolen. Together we must mend, meld, be, blend,exist.Mud becomes dirt and the lies will dry. Me and you and we multiply. Multiply to divide.